I fall in love with my characters. They are an extension of me. My best or my worst. I think about them all the time.. I think it's the same for most authors.
The last book, the final chapter, it's like a funeral. You are literally putting a world with all of it's people to rest. The last chapter is their goodbye to both the readers and the creator. It's really sad.
I think I'm going to miss Rowan most of all. Bobby doesn't belong to me, he belongs to Marvel. The same goes for Kurt, Kitty, etc. BUT, they do feel like mine. I gave them my own personalities. I can promise you that Bobby doesn't act like he does in the movies or comics. He feels like an original character. Rowan though... she's mine.
Rowan Prescott-Wagner was my very first real character. I've been creating stories since I was little, but she was my first 'grown up' character. I created my first story around her, the story that made me fall head over heels in love with writing. I don't want her to die, and the sad thing is, I know it's time. It's like when you have a pet that you love so much, but it's old or sick. You don't want to put it down, but it's what's best for it. If I were to create another story for Rowan, it would ruin what she's already been through. Her story truly is over... It really hurts.. maybe it's just that I'm crazy! Maybe normal people don't feel that way about their characters, but I do. They are real to me.
On the bright side of it, I have written another book. This makes two completed as soon as I get to chapter 40. That's a huge accomplishment and I am so happy with it. I can see my growth from Fire and Ice till to Gone Rogue.
It's all a journey. There are so many stories that I want to tell. So many people I want to bring to life and play with. I want to create worlds, creatures, adventures. I am so in love with what I do.. it's beautiful. Writing is beautiful.
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