Long Time No Blog

Long time no blog. I lead a pretty boring life if you haven't gathered that thus far. I did turn 17 last Wednesday, so that's fun! It kinda sucks to be growing up, honestly. I still wish Peter Pan was real and he would take me away from school, responsibility, etc.

This next week should be pretty fun I think. Tomorrow I have church which is basically just me and my best friend, Jessy, hanging out since it's just adults class.

Thursday Jessy and I are going to the mall since she needs some new work clothes. We're then going to this amazing used book store. I hope to get a few things there! She probably will too since we're both big readers.

Sunday I am going to decoration. I'll see a bunch of distant family that I only see at this even once a year. It's always nice to do that!
Then Monday... oh Monday. WE ARE GOING TO SEE AGE OF ULTRON!!!! I am so beyond excited :D

Anyway, that's my week in a clam shell! It's going to be fun and I get to do it all with my best friend which makes it even better.

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On the writer side of things, I am working on chapter 38 of Gone Rogue.. that's so insane to me! I changed the cover too ---

It'll most likely be the last time I change it. Everything is coming to an end with it.. it's sad. I've reached 2000 reads on that :D So that's cool.

 

 

Demon with a Purpose is going amazing. I love writing it soo much! It is 12 reads away from 1000 <3 SO HAPPY ABOUT THAT! I'm just so in love with it.. I really am. 

25K

Guys. Fire and Ice has twenty-five thousand reads. 25K. THAT'S A HUGE FREAKING NUMBER!!!!

Oh my gosh, I am speechless. This was my goal! My big, big goal.. I just can't even express how much this means to me. Fire and Ice was my first real book and I've talked about that a lot... but this is just so crazy. Thank you so very much. I really can't say anything else about it. I am speechless.

Zee Mad Hatter

Hi. How are ya? Hope you're great.

I'm in a rather dark mood. I watched a Once Upon a Time episode from season one and it was about the Mad Hatter. He is played by SEBASTIAN STAN!!!!!!! My like....obsession. Either way, he plays a.. well.. mad man and he freaking owns the role. If you have Netflix and want to watch it, it's season one, episode 17 : Hat Trick! I seriously recommend it even if you don't like Once Upon a Time. I mean come on, Bucky is playing the Mad Hatter..

He's so gorgeous, isn't he? Anyway, he has a serious creep factor that I am in love with. Therefore, I suddenly wanted to write a crazy person into a story, ya know? Like a murderer or something. I haven't done that yet.

 

Here's what I came up with - - - - - - -

 

I slit my first throat when I was 9 years old. My small white hands had gripped the rusty kitchen knife. Wide eyes were locked on my step father sitting at the table, mumbling in his drunken state. Do it, Jane. He'll hurt you if you don't. It won't be that bad, I promise! You know I've done it before. Plenty of times.
I swallowed hard. The voice had always been right before. I should listen. Taking calculated steps, I edged forward, slipping behind his chair. The smoke from his cigar made it's way to my nose causing the voice to go into overdrive, sending chills down my spine. Hurry up, Jane! Before he hurts you!
"How?" I whimpered quietly, switching the knife to my right hand.
He looked back at me when I spoke. His eyes took in the knife with a smirk, "You wouldn't hurt me. Would you, Janey?"
I faltered when he hung his head over the back of the chair, giving me complete access to his throat. NOW! Acting before I even realized what I was doing, the knife made it's way to his neck. The blade dug in as deep as a 9 year old girl could push it and I drug it across. Blood immediately spilled, covering my previously innocent hands.
The cigar fell from his lips and he reached for his throat, gargling something. His eyes locked on me and he lurched forward, catching me by the shoulder and dragging me to the floor.
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Good job, Jane! He can't mess with you any more.
I looked down at my hands where the dried blood was pulling every time I moved. "Won't I get in trouble for this?" Tears glistened in my eyes for the first time. I pulled my knees up to my chest and buried my head in them.
Of course not! the voice purred in a way that made my fears start to slip. I'll never let them hurt you, I promise.

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It was random and fun to do! haha I doubt I'll do anything else with it.



Little Scare

Hello everyone :D

So, I had a momentary scare the other day when I was pretty sure that I was stuck on Gone Rogue. Back in December when I deleted the first edition of GR, it instilled a fear in me that I would be unable to finish it. Thankfully I was able to find the inspiration at 2AM and posted it thereafter. So chapter 35 is DONE!

In this chapter (SPOILERS) I said goodbye to Dax and Tempest. While they are coming back in a book titled Forward Motion, it was sad to see the go in GR :( It really was like the end and I felt horrible.

I wanted to share this because I thought it was gorgeous!

Much love!!

Missing People and SARANGELO

Hello everyone! :D I hope you are having an amazing day! My day has been pretty hard. It's my Poppa Harold's birthday. He would have been 70 years old. I lost him 3 days after my birthday in 2009. I also lost my Poppa Robert the day before my birthday in 2009. So, while I enjoy April and my birthday, it's a horrible reminder of 2009 when I lost two very important people in my life.

I try to look on the bright side though! They wouldn't want me to be upset on my birthday or the weeks surrounding it. At times I wonder what they would think of my writing. They died when I was 11 and while I loved reading, I didn't write at that time. I think they would have been proud. Especially my Poppa Harold. He really nurtured my love of reading and I think he saw the writer in me before I did.

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On a lighter note, SelenaBarrows12 posted chapter one of Forever Hunted! I fangirled so hard ;) I've been eagerly waiting for this.

This chapter was a good intro into what was coming. There were funny Logan moments and adorable Sarangelo moments (even if they are just friends.... this ship has set sail for me either way!) I can't wait to watch it grow and eventually see Rowan enter the picture :D Fun things are in store!!

You can read it yourself HERE! Go give it some love :D

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Here is your prompt and much love to you all <3 <3

Almost The End

I am currently working on chapter 35 of Gone Rogue. I could cry right now out of both relief and sadness. My friend SelenaBarrows and I have talked about this as she is working on the last installment of her much loved Forever Series. We talked about how it's bittersweet.

I fall in love with my characters. They are an extension of me. My best or my worst. I think about them all the time.. I think it's the same for most authors.

The last book, the final chapter, it's like a funeral. You are literally putting a world with all of it's people to rest. The last chapter is their goodbye to both the readers and the creator. It's really sad.

I think I'm going to miss Rowan most of all. Bobby doesn't belong to me, he belongs to Marvel. The same goes for Kurt, Kitty, etc. BUT, they do feel like mine. I gave them my own personalities. I can promise you that Bobby doesn't act like he does in the movies or comics. He feels like an original character. Rowan though... she's mine.

Rowan Prescott-Wagner was my very first real character. I've been creating stories since I was little, but she was my first 'grown up' character. I created my first story around her, the story that made me fall head over heels in love with writing. I don't want her to die, and the sad thing is, I know it's time. It's like when you have a pet that you love so much, but it's old or sick. You don't want to put it down, but it's what's best for it. If I were to create another story for Rowan, it would ruin what she's already been through. Her story truly is over...

It really hurts.. maybe it's just that I'm crazy! Maybe normal people don't feel that way about their characters, but I do. They are real to me.

On the bright side of it, I have written another book. This makes two completed as soon as I get to chapter 40. That's a huge accomplishment and I am so happy with it. I can see my growth from Fire and Ice till to Gone Rogue.

It's all a journey. There are so many stories that I want to tell. So many people I want to bring to life and play with. I want to create worlds, creatures, adventures. I am so in love with what I do.. it's beautiful. Writing is beautiful.

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Rainy Days

I am so happy that's it's April!! Everything is coming to life and turning green. It's warmer outside and best of all, spring showers.

I'm sitting outside right now during a small storm. It's not raining much, but there is quiet thunder in the distance and the air is cool. I can smell the wet grass.. it's amazing. There's something special about the atmosphere while it's storming and after it's over. It's almost like a brand new world. Everything feels brand new and alive.

I hope to get some writing done out here! If the bees out here don't chase me away. I am terrified of bees. It doesn't help that I'm allergic, so if I get stung it's BAD. Maybe they will leave me alone ;)

So, what are your favorite places/times to just write and meditate. Where do you feel the most at peace?